20 THINGS ABOUT STEVEN THAT MAKE ME SMILE

What a weekend! I am still recovering! We met up Saturday night and had dinner, drinks, and then stopped off at the Swinger's Club.

We wandered (as usual), observed a freaky girl masturbating in front of people, watched a bit of porn, and then went and watched a couple have sex. It was a turn on, except the guy couldn't keep it up, so it didn't last too long. SO...we went into a room to have our own fun, and left the door open for a few observers...it was a fast but intense show...blow job, sex from behind, I had a nice orgasm, and then turned around to catch Steve's load in my mouth. I believe there was a slight applause!

After that we met up with two friends of mine (FROM CHURCH!!) and had more drinks, and danced. Well, I wasn't in much of a dancing mood, but Steve and the friends were, so that was cool. AND THEY LOVED HIM! Within minutes they were whispering about how cute he was and how perfect we were together, and I was like....I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW!!! Yes, these girls are aware of my situation (our situation) but both agree that I need to be happy, both know that my husband has agreed to turn a blind eye to anything, and they both can see that Steven and I are a great fit for each other.

Well...it was all fine and dandy until I got sick. Yep...one shot too many. I will spare you the details, but let's just say that you know a guy is a keeper when he deals with your puking ass, and stays sweet and loving the whole time. Seriously, Steven took such good care of me...and while I am mortified that I let it happen, it is nice to know that we can be that way with each other.

So...it took me all day Sunday to recover, but it was worth it overall. We had a great time. I am in such a good place right now. Steven and I had lunch together in the park today, it was just so nice to have that quiet, mellow TOGETHER time.

I have been really reflective lately. I don't think that I was in a good place most of the summer. I feel like I was going through the motions. Being a mom, working, keeping things up around the house. Volunteering time, trips, weddings, etc. Underneath this though I was in a hard place. I wouldn't say a dark place, but a hard place. A place where I couldn't see the end of anything. Where everything seemed untouchable. Things were dangling in front of me, but I couldn't reach out far enough to grab them.

I am BACK. And that is a great feeling. To have the kids back in school, to have a routine again, to feel like I can DO THIS. I can get through what I need to get through in the next day. Week. Month. Year. I am strong. I am loved. I can conquer anything! I have goals. Little goals and huge goals.

So...here is a little list of things about Steven that make me smile...I am just so damned happy right now that it is almost obnoxious!

1. His sense of humor.
2. The way he kisses me.
3. The low growl noise he makes when he is sexually devouring me.
4. The way his arms feel around me.
5. Our inside jokes. There are lots of them.
6. The fact that he likes that indent that is between the nose and upper lip on me.
7. When he breathes me in.
8. When he tacks his last name/initial on to my name.
9. The fact that he has a voyeuristic / exhibitionist side.
10. My friends adore him.
11. His lips. Ohhhh they make me HOT.
12. Lunch at the park with him. Love this!
13. The silly things we do that are just US.
14. The feel of our skin touching.
15. The fact that he always drives and always opens doors. I like how he looks driving my car.
16. How he is EXACTLY what I need.
17. The fact that we have so much in common.
18. The fact that we are rubbing off on each other, and acquiring each other's likes.
19. How passionate he is.
20. We are perfect for each other.

I hope you all had a great weekend!